Archive for August, 2011

Love of silence ness

August 18, 2011

As vase as the space of universe
As deep as the depth of the ocean
As firm as the solidness of the earth

A pure love is only manifesting as such
Silence without any words

It is always deep inside your heart
Only those embrace silence ness
Able to realize

The love of silence ness

Beyond words
Beyond forms


chasing the shadow of desires

August 17, 2011

Chasing the desires

Alike chasing the shadow of the moon

It looks real and concrete

Yet, its has no real substance and existence

However, we like to keep chasing from one desire to another desire

Thinking this is happiness

Yet, the cycle of craving, fears and sufferings

Will follow us like the shadow

return to your inner home of mind

August 12, 2011
tibet_photo of Angela Chai, 2011

tibet_photo of Angela Chai, 2011

When we are able to honest and confess our inner deceptive thoughts and diluted mind.

When we are able to realise how hurtful the lie we make to people who care and love us

We will know that the lie and dishonest is due to our fears and desires of gaining something from others. These are the craving and attachment to self- want to feel good, admire, being focus of attention and being apprected like great star and hero.

This craving make you become away from your inner original kindness of your mind.

Deceptive mind

August 12, 2011

I witnessed the deceptive minds of mine and others
My mind and heart was crashed into pieces
Alike the storms and earthquakes
The sound of screaming, pains of being hurt
The stage of mind in great insanity

The deceptive mind led me to insanity
Insanity of making illusion as real existence
The deceptive of inner mind
The deceptive of outer mind

The dream of inner mind
Brought me to this insanity
Brought me and all sentient beings to insanity

We deceive ourselves the justice is there
We deceive ourselves the power will be permanent
We deceive ourselves there is right and wrong, bad and good, happiness and sadness, hate and love
We deceive ourselves there are true friends and enemies
We deceive ourselves that only revolution is the answer
We deceive ourselves that revenge is the only answer to eliminate injustice
We deceive ourselves that some bloods are more precious than others, hence we can be insane

Master! Bless me the supreme compassion!
May my insanity and all sentient beings mind
Able to liberate from all deceptions of our minds!

May our minds are able to return to its original home
Enable to liberate from craving to all these deceptive beliefs

The precious love of kindness

August 2, 2011

This is the 21 years anniversary of my father passing away. Yet, the memory of him has been vividly alive in my memory till today. Especially on his attitude towards his partner and also the daughters.

My father was born in a well educated family in Hainam Island in the year 1920 . He was educated in the university and yet unable to finish it due to the political turmoil in the mainland China.
Leaving to Malaysia with the hope to start a new life.

In the period of life alike an exile and living in the alien land. He met his second wife which was my mother. A working class woman who was a mid wife. She was a tough woman who had to carry all the burden of the family and siblings needs since she was young. Her toughness in coping with life had brought to her ill health and also rather tough temper. Yet, she has an very unique quality that was told by my father. My mother was a very kind person.

Her kindness to him, a man who lived in exile from his own mother land of China. She gave him the refuge home of love.
Her love to him that brought her to carry all his burden in the family life

This is what my father told me that why he married our mother who seems to be not match to his intellectuality , gentleness and social strata.
He told me: “Don’t you know your mother had the most beautiful thing within her. Her kindness is the most precious and beautiful one:.”

It was true. our late mother. a mid wife who had to work very hard for many women for their safe delivery of babies in the hospital. To host and support them when some of the women and babies were born and abandoned by their partners. We were asked to collect all necessities for these women who needed help. These were the life routine for us at home when we were young.

This is the most beautiful teaching that our father had taught us: to value your love one with her kindness and to treat them with same kindness and appreciation. These inherent qualities and values of love which brought them to live together till their passing away. ,They remained together whether it was a in good or bad times of their life.

The love of kindness was such as precious element in their love and life.


August 1, 2011

It was a scary dream…
The dream brought me into the roof top of tall building

I was struggling
On my back….
So heavy…something put on my back….

I struggle and pushed all my strength
Finally I managed to escape
To lift the burden from my back
Able to l escape from the fears of the high

In real life

All the anxious
All the uncertainty
All the dilemma
All the self created imagination of reality
All the self expectation of you

All vanish
Just Like the burbles

As its has never been appeared
As like you have never came into my life